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Arrival In Paulding Friday, Jul. 11, 2003 09:53 Well I'm at my dad's Rather I'm in my dad's town. I was locked out of the hosue when I got into town last night so you better believe that I'm fucking pissed off. I did everything. Pounding ringing the doorbell, honking my horn.....calling. But nope. So Yeah I'm fucking pissed. Luckily I had a number to a friends house and he said I could call if it was late when I got into town. So I did and I went and picked him up and we stayed at Kim's mom's house ( who is at the hospital). But at least I had some place to stay. wanna know what's funny though? They locked the door at night when everyone is there. but they fail to lock the door during the day when No one is there. Messed up. But you know whatever. I'm just fucking pissed off so damn bad cause they knew i was coming and Jared usually waits up for me or is asleep on the couch when I get there and the door is always unlocked so I'm fucking pissed. Just unbelievably pissed. Anyways. I plan on seeing Kim today. Kenny says that she's doing a lot better and everything which I'm glad to hear. LOL she's getting really frustrated though. I can understand that :( I wanted to get to the fabric store before I went there but I don't know if I can. I don't really want to drive all the way to Defiance then to Fort Wayne.... That's kinda a pain. And hell there isn't anything in this fucking town either. So I dunno. I really can't wait to make her baby clothes. hehe she'll have the coolest baby on the block....I only want to make it for fun. I know the baby can't wear them for a long time. They are talking like a month until she gets out of the hospital....but oh well it's the idea that counts. Also me and kenny were working on this idea that I had. To make a scrapbook of marilyn manson...which i printed out all his lyrics and pics of him....whew I didnt realize how much work it's going to be.....So I'm not going to finish it before I go and see her tonight I don't think....unless i work on it constantly. I also wrote marilyn manson and left a message on his site about Kim's accident....I know he's on tour so I don't know if he will get it or not but I hope so. :D I'm kinda excited to see her....lol but I feel all shy for some reason. That's kinda like when i was talking to her and she was in the coma I just pictured her sitting there thinking why the hell is starr acting/talking like an idiot. LOL. Oh well. I'm just glad that she's doing great. So I'll try to get over being pissed and think excited........yawn I want to go back to bed. Wish the kid wanted that too. hehe. To make matters worse. I have the worst fucking possible cramps ever. I dont' even want to walk...I hurts so fucking bad. :(( I just wanna cry.....ooooh wait I have vicodin. Nevermind. Forget the Past ~*~ Hope for the Future Link me! <a href="http://sailorschica.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC= "http://sailorschica.diaryland.com/images/sailorschica.gif"></a> xx xx