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YOU KNOW I"M TALKING TO YOU. Thursday, Nov. 05, 2009 02:15 I'm frustrated and upset with you. You can't see it my way, and I plenty see it your way! You can't help explaining over and over and over again how it is for you, when you've already told me. I ALREADY KNOW, and it doesn't change the way I feel. It doesn't make me feel better. I GET IT, I DO! Fuck, just go, go do that, if that's what you want and how you feel, fuck! I'm not going to stop you! I care about you, so why would it bother me? I want you to be happy, even if it's without me, and apparently it is, since you spend more time there, and what little time you have with me, all you talk about is that. WHICH I HATE. A lil more dies inside me everytime its mentioned. YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL! It won't change, it won't get better. And excuse me, don't I have the right to change how I feel? I thought it was okay. I thought I would be okay, but I'm not and you deserve the right to know. I'm not going to lie. And sometimes when you talk about it, I think smugly in my head, that you sound like everyone else, that you are the same. You laugh about everyone else. You talk about it like you have a crush, with such excitement and happiness. YOU think I can't see it makes you happy? I do, that's why I'd rather let you go, then fight over it, with you, with it. If you can't see that it's worth it, then IT'S NOT WORTH IT! Do what makes you happy.... some quote I heard somewhere. Do what makes you happy. You know how I feel, how I think. I know how I feel and think. And I'm thinking I was right. Though I didn't want to be. // If you can't see that it's worth it, then IT'S NOT WORTH IT!// // ~*~AND~*~ In the end I hope it was worth it to you!! Forget the Past ~*~ Hope for the Future Link me! <a href="http://sailorschica.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC= "http://sailorschica.diaryland.com/images/sailorschica.gif"></a> xx xx