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-Dominick Wednesday, Dec. 14, 2005 16:15 This is going to be the first time that I admit on my online journal what has happened to me. I was beat up by my ex finace. He broke my nose, sprained my wrist, bruised my bone on my finger, the entire left side of my face was bruised and beaten. And I'm being torn because I pressed charges, which he got out of. He is out jof jail. And I'm conflicted that I still love him. I think I must be this sick person that loves someone who hurts her. I don't know what my problem is, I know I care for him, I think of him all the time, I want to see him, to touch him, and yet I wanted him to pay, I wanted him to be punished because I needed that for me to heal, he got a scummy lawyer that brought up our Sub/Dom relationship, and various other things. I'll finish this later........ Evanescense---October I can't run anymore, I fall before you, Here I am, I have nothing left, Though I've tried to forget, You're all that I am, Take me home, I'm through fighting it, Broken, Lifeless, I give up, You're my only strength, Without you, I can't go on, Anymore, Ever again. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. I can't run anymore, I give myself to you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, In all my bitterness, I ignored, All that's real and true, All I need is you, When night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes, I'm too alive, And you're too strong, I can't lie anymore, I fall down before you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. Constantly ignoring, The pain consuming me, But this time it's cut too deep, I'll never stray again. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love, My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. Forget the Past ~*~ Hope for the Future Link me! <a href="http://sailorschica.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC= "http://sailorschica.diaryland.com/images/sailorschica.gif"></a> xx xx