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Take Care Wednesday, Aug. 11, 2004 18:41 I don't ever know what I want. I'm having problems with my ovaries. I have cysts. They don't seem too worried about it yet. I've been to the er Three times, the dr and so far it's just waiting and monitoring. I'm sick. The pain is unbearable at times and there has to be something done about this. The vicodin is nice.....but it doesn't make it even go completely away. I've been sick to my stomach and puking. Just over all feeling like shit. Back to not knowing what I want. Me and Terry have broken up...gotten back together (or whatever) and broken up and sorta back together again. Each time, we seem to lower the level the relationship can be. I go back and forth from just wanting friends, to just wanting sex, to wanting more. Today....I dunno. I'm enjoying my freedom as being single, but yet I love my committment to Terry as well. I just may take it one day at a time and see how things go. Right now, I really need to focus on myself and stop to fix everyone and everything and make sure EVERYONE else is taken care of.....been doing that for too long. I need to take care of myself..... No one else does. Forget the Past ~*~ Hope for the Future Link me! <a href="http://sailorschica.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC= "http://sailorschica.diaryland.com/images/sailorschica.gif"></a> xx xx