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Can't Handle It. Saturday, Jun. 26, 2004 17:22 Well I'm still crazy as usual.... I still don't know what's going on. Me and Terry got together last week and spent the weekend together.....it was great....stress free, fight free....no expectations or jealousy. Makes me wonder how we could have made our relationship like that. It was beautiful. I loved being with him, being silly, happy, and everything, and not fighting. It felt great to be around him because I do really like him for a person and care about him. :D Of course.............he freaked out....says I can't handle a casual relationship, and started pushing me away. I can tell he's broken. But if he is the one that is so "fucked" up and confused and weird right now? how come I get to be the one who can't handle things? I can. I take whatever I get from him, just like in the beginning. I told him I didn't like him more then friends because I couldn't........ I wish we could just be cool, like we were for those few days. And not have him freaking out. Sigh. And I still don't have all my stuff from his house either. He put it off and put it off and then we were talking and hanging out, so I wasn't as concerned.....now we're not hanging out again, and he said he would bring things a few times in the past couple days but hasn't. I'm pissed and annoyed and actually think he's keeping it to have some control...and to just keep having excuses to talk to me or deal with me, but make it look bad, because I would have to be the one calling for my stuff....ugh. I don't know. I wish I could have turned back time to fix our relationship.....at least to were we could be friends right now. He's so up and down.....he's bipolar....and I'm taking the repercussions for it. I love him. I want to be around him and be his friend, because it's apparant a relationship wouldn't work out right now, and we both need to focus on ourselves anyways. He pushes me away like this, I know he needs me. I just want to pull closer and hug him when he does this. Blah.......I'm depressed. Forget the Past ~*~ Hope for the Future Link me! <a href="http://sailorschica.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC= "http://sailorschica.diaryland.com/images/sailorschica.gif"></a> xx xx