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I hate Evan- Not really. Wednesday, Apr. 02, 2003 21:19 Hmmmm?? Can I say AHHHHHHHHHHH? Evan drives my blood pressure through the roof. I swear how can I love someone that drives me so damn nuts? He is so crazy. He drives me so nuts. The only reason he has that damn effect on me is because I care so damn much. FUCK CARING! Men are idiots........oh hello guys I love you. :D Seriously. For whatever reason. Yesterday it just hit me. ( he may disagree with me, but he doesn't see things how they really are anyways.) He's crazy!........he really is. But it's ok. I still love his "making me wanna smack him sometimes" ass. He just has made me feel guilty and like the shit the past few months. He gets mad over the stupiest things. Like when I am joking or expressing my feelings. I came to releize something. He reacts that way, cause he honestly is a paranoid freak that thinks I truly feel that way. So he gets mad that I would think that because he doens't know how to react. Hmmmm I'm not explaining this well. But that doesn't matter. Cause I know what I mean. And my cloud of depression and been lifted off. Because I am not guilty of doing what he says. I've always been a very caring, supportive, thoughtful person. So today......I realized......it's not my fault......I'm a good person. And it's odd......learning that, it's kinda made me feel like I am over him. I mean I'm not all that eager to see him now. Or anything. It's quite interesting. Anyways, I think that's it.......:D whoooo hoooo. :X:X:X Forget the Past ~*~ Hope for the Future Link me! <a href="http://sailorschica.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC= "http://sailorschica.diaryland.com/images/sailorschica.gif"></a> xx xx